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It's not just good-bye, i'm going to TJ
Today, went to school after the long period of being MIA. We all went for breakfast at macs at the interchange (the one within walking distance.). Then after that we went back to the library and just discussed abt the class party thingy next tuesday. We were scolded by THE WOMAN OF NY LIBRARY. Yup. the scary one with a capital S. Then after all that discussion our whole class went for CL'AO', yes, even us, the CL 'A' and HCL pple. haha. cuz everyone wuz so sian of stuff and unsure of combi aft three months (okay, nvm thats just me). The AO teacher din say anything at all though, he played 地下铁 for us to watch. Couldn really see properly at first cuz the room no curtains then quite brite. But later got a bit more of the movie and its so sweet. haha. pretty romantic. and funny. hehz, parts of it lahz.
Following dat, we had GP and we watched this tape abt the Nazi and Jews thingy. yeah, hey don blame me, i don take history and i just NOE i'm not gonna do well for GP. Pretty bad sight. Ugh. While we were watching, Mr Tong passed a note arnd, it said alot of stuff but i remembered most of all he said "I'll miss Jamie, Joyce. Pearly, Sherry." Argh. oh no. at that moment, it wuz like "ok, i'm coming back to NY." den later during lit, when Ms Chew was asking everyone how they did, and where they going i got pretty depressed. Heard fm Jamie Mr Tong mite be teaching 04A1 and it seems most pple are staying, and taking same combi=end up in same class. I mean. Aiyah. i also dunno wad i mean. But the whole time it wuz just an internal struggle. It also seemed super ironic. Look, Angie is tis year's Os top sec 5 pupil lor, 8 pts, staying. Hannah got 9 pts lor, staying. Then this dunno come from where person, 13 pts, going to TJC. ugh. doesn that sound stupid to you? It sure did to me. Sure, i remember all the hard work i put in to get out of the "neighbourhood sch" label and fighting to prove everybody wrong. I did, i guess. I did prove everybody wrong. Arts inclined pple does not equal to gone case. You don have to be in RGS, or dunman high or VS for dat matter to excel(i tink i really drilled that into some pple's head.). Ok. i din excel exactly, but it wuz a gigantic breakthrough on my part. The F9 turn B3. The never ever pass turn C5.... The one from the last class,the hopeless class is actually in the JC only our sch's top pple had made it to. All these mean something to me.(Heh, the blank and shocked expressions were real funny to look at.) I noe how i've told myself not to fall in love with NY and leave for TJC when i get the chance(Doesn that sound like a line from some romance movie?). But yet, here is something holding me back. The pull is strong. really strong. Mebbe its becuz i've never been in such a close-knitted class. Mebbe its cuz i've never met such superb teachers. Mebbe its cuz of the pple i've met and grown to really like these 2 months or so. Mebbe its just the perfect irony i mention above. Mebbe its cuz... i dunno wad its cuz of, but i am bending a little. oh no. But i guess i would still be able to hold on. As in, i haven yet slanted to the extent of having the urge to run down to MOE and pay administration fee to change my choices. No. I'm still sticking wif TJ, but the 不舍得 has come into the picture for real. It isn as easy as it seems, now i realise. It's not just good-bye, i'm going to TJ. Its really leaving pple u care abt, whom u noe care for u to a certain extent. Its leaving something you dunno if you'll find again. It's leaping head-first into an environment you noe NOTHING abt. Its the fear of falling into something you worry might not be your cup of tea. Its everything. Argh. Ok. I'm getting long-winded. ultra. urm. Don worry. i will stay wif my choice. i hope. ugh. super-confused now. let me go rest my confused head.... ta-ta, pple. wont be in sch tomorrow. need ta think. **It isn as easy as it seems, now i realise. It's not just good-bye, i'm going to TJ. Its really leaving pple u care abt, whom u noe care for u to a certain extent. Its leaving something you dunno if you'll find again. It's leaping head-first into an environment you noe NOTHING abt. Its the fear of falling into something you worry might not be your cup of tea.** ~~Summary of all that junko above which u prob have no interest to read~~ Now i have to say thanks not only to 04A1. But to: Ms Cara Chew (For her smile and all those encouragement. [And letting me noe HC does produce superbly nice teachers too. haha.]) Mr Tong Yee (For being not one of the best, but the best sch teacher ever.) 冯院长(i also dunno for wad. but just thanks.) 冯老师(For the bowl of cornflakes, and your hwa chong stories.) Nathaniel (For waving to me everytime you see me and always caring enough to ask/msg to ask how i am.) most of 04A8 (Like XiaoHui, Entia, Eileen...) some of 04A7 (Nathalie [thankew ZiHui, if not i wouldn noe her.], Si min, Lu Di, Kenneth...) My Clan and OG(Talon.Thasia.OG7.Wei Song.Kathleen.Clan Emperor/empresses: Nat and Christine.etc etc) Yan Yi (For letting me noe someone else from NY live in bedok reservoir too.haha) Everyone not mentioned that i've met and come to know of during my 2 mnths plus stay in NY. (That means u pple: Shalyn, Wonus, Johnathan, Crystal, Guo Qing (I noe, u going NJC, i heard.), Michelle(heard u got 10pts?), Wan Lin, Rebecca, Wan Rong(never got to say this, but shawn's rite, u do look like sun yan zi.), Man Li (i'm sure u'll have fun in NTU.), Jia Yee, Jia Yi, Pei Yi, Pei Yi, Pei Ying, Emily Peng, Emily Seow, Emily Tan, Wai Ling, Grace(see ya in TJ), Elaine(u don have to wear th RV uniform anymore.), Patricia, Brenda, Yu Xing, Diana(The best choir senior. best mentor also. and no, i'm not going AC), Dolly (Great sectional leader.altoz e bez.), Kevin(For getting me into choir.).......... and the list goes on.) Joyce at 11:54 PM
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